Live Like You Wanna

Ever listen to a song that sings to your soul?? The lyrics just express exactly what you have been feeling lately or that says just the thing you need to hear?? The song that has been that song for me was on a Spotify playlist that I have been jamming to lately. It is one of those songs that makes me wanna turn it up and roll the windows down and totally rock out. Or have a dance party.

Dance parties. They are what I live for. Sometimes when I am in class I just wanna crank it up and jam with the whole class. I work at a preschool and we have dance parties weekly at minimum and I love it.

So anyways, back to the song that has been my soul song this week. I haven't even been in a particularly depressed time in my life but this song still gets my soul even happier than it is.

It is "Live Like a Warrior" by Matisyahu. And yes, we did have a dance party to this song at work today.

Here are the Lyrics in video form and not

Feel like the world don't love you 
They only want to push you away 
Some days people don't see you 
You feel like you're in the way 
Today you feel, as if everyone hates 
Pointing their fingers, looking at your mistakes 
You do good, they want great 
No matter what you give they still want to take 
Give your love and they throw it back 
You give your heart they go on attack 
When there's nothing left for you, 
Only thing that you can do, say

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Fight like a Warrior, 

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Live like a Warrior 

Some things you should let go, they're only gonna pull you down,
Just like weight on your shoulder they are only gonna make you drown 
We all swing high, we all swing low, 
We all got secrets people don't know 
We all got dreams we can't let go, 
We want to brave, Don't be afraid 
Ohh

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Fight like a Warrior, 

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Live like a Warrior 

Your heart is too heavy from things you carry a long time, 
You been up you been down, tired and you don't know why, 
But you're never gonna go back, you only live one life 
Let go, let go, let goooooo, Let go, let go, let goooooo, 

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Fight like a Warrior, 

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Live like a Warrior 

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Fight like a Warrior, 

Today, today, live like you wanna, 
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire, 
Live like a Warrior

So the first stanza of this song is expressing how it feels to be depressed. You feel like everyone just keeps putting you down again and again. But the rest of the song tells you to live like YOU wanna and throw away yesterday and not let it bother you. And it says Let it go (hope you aren't singing Frozen now HAHA) let yesterday go. You aren't gonna get tomorrow back so you have to live today like you want to.

Don't let anyone tell you how to live today because it isn't what you want. So next time you wanna rock out to your favorite song in the car, don't worry about the people in the cars around you judging you, what are the odds that you will see them again or that they will remember that you're that happy person who rocked out in their car at a stoplight?? Dance in the isles of the grocery store with your loved ones. 

I constantly worry what other people will think of me if I do certain things. But what is the likelihood that that will stick in their heads? Not very likely. If they love you then they won't care and they might even join you. If they say they love you and they judge you then maybe they don't really love you... 

So turn up your favorite song in the car and roll down your windows. 

Have a dance party in the middle of your day; whether it is in your car, house, office, classroom, bedroom, or even the bathroom it might make your day a little bit better. Dance like no one is watching, even if there are people who are watching.

Adulting

As I am now of legal age I am trying to figure out how to "adult." I am learning that it isn't something that can be taught by an adultier adult. It is a very hard time and I am struggling a lot with it. But somehow, I am getting through it.

Being an adult and managing money and saving money is all stuff I am trying to figure out.

Managing my time is even more difficult. I tend to procrastinate unintentionally. I find myself telling myself that I will get to it later and then its 3 days before and I haven't done anything about it yet.

Currently, I am very happy with where I am in life. I know what I want to be when I "grow up," I am on schedule to finally graduate, and I am beyond happy with those who I have surrounded myself with.

I was telling one of my friends yesterday how I didn't think I would ever be this happy after being so depressed for so long, yet here I am!

I have had friends coming and going in my life and I guess that is just what it is like to be a grown up. I am trying to be mature and figure out my life and my immature friends don't like that. They like immature, unadult Dakota better but I cannot be that person forever. No one can. I am just noticing earlier than some that I have to mature and grow up.

I am currently balancing school, work, family, friends and my boyfriend very well if I do say so myself. But I wouldn't be able to do this without all of the support I have from the people who love and care about me.

I think every one goes through this tough time between childhood and adulthood but no one talks about it. Maybe because they are embarrassed about it or maybe because they think everyone else has their sh*t together except for them. It is another one of those things that doesn't get talked about but really should be if you ask me.

It is hard to go from having everything given to you to having to fend for yourself and having to pay for your own things with your own money. But somehow everyone gets through it one way or another.

One day we will look back on these odd young adult years and laugh but today, we just have to keep our heads held high and keep a smile on our face because it does get better.